Ok so I get 1 day off this week and then have to start my new shift on Sunday… Got to get up at the fucking Butt Crack of Dawn.

My hours used to be from 11am to 7:45pm. Now my new shift… got to be on the floor and ready to go at 6:30 am until 3:15 pm. Means I have to get up around 4:30 am..

Have I ever mentioned I am NOT a morning person?? No well I can tell ya.. I am not.. Emphatically NOT ..

But there is not much I can do at the moment. Got to be in this Butt Crack of Dawn shift for 6 months before I can change. Oh well I can do it.. My customers might not like the early morning me. But if I have to deal.. Guess what?? So do they.. LMAO

Later,

LS

Posted by LordStar as My Life, Rants at 7:35 PM CDT

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Just what the fuck is it with people today….? 

My room mate just informed me that someone that I once knew and called friend had asked him to ask me for some of his stuff back that he gave us as a gift.  When did the rules on gift giving change? Was I asleep? Did I miss the memo? Is it perhaps the air here in Missouri? No then perhaps the water…

 I was brought up to understand that when you give someone a gift , it is theirs to keep. Hence the name “Gift”.  If you intend to reclaim it one day then you just tell the person you are giving it to that you just need them to hang on to it for a while and you will come back and get it eventually…

I thank the god’s and goddess’s that in less than a month that Red and I will be on our own again. We have just come to realize that we are not room mate material. We live and march to a much different drummer than most. And we do fine together. In the last 7 years we have lived with many people. Either we lived with them as room mates or they lived with us. Sometimes it was good and some times it was bad.. Very Bad. But it was a learning experiance..

Now Red and I do have Phamily that has never given up on us. That is what Phamily is for. They love you no matter what.. But the last 7 years has taught us that friends come and go. For any number of reasons. And occasionsly they leave you a parting gift such as a knife in the back. But no matter, life goes on and if you stem the bleeding fast enough you live to move on.

Now a little history here on this so called gift… It constitutes several pieces of lifestyle equipment. Some floggers and a few paddles to be exact. Well this “once” friend had decided that he was done with the lifestyle and wanted nothing more to remind him of it. Ok, cool. Shite happens…  And since Mim had admired one of his famous paddles since the day he aquired it he decided that she was to be the new owner of it and several other pieces he had. Since he no longer had any uses for them. Now you have to understand this person was our friend for over 5 years. And we had gone through a lot of shit with this person. Good and bad. But we never told tales out of school and never outed him, nothing. We always treated him as more of a brother than a friend. We had considered him Phamily.  He was that close of a friend. Or so we thought. Until several months ago. Somewhere down the line he had listened to other people and I am not sure to this day as to what was said. But we became the evil incarnite and were to be ostrisized from all that was good. SO as would happen things were said and one thing led to another and we have not spoken since… Well not so actually.. I heard through people that his dad had passed and I took in upon myself to send him an email to offer him our condolences. His dad was a nice guy…

Well I never got a response to the email .. Not that I figured I would. So life went on.. Until tonight. Then out of the blue my room mate told me he saw him and he asked for his stuff back… Of course my first response was , “if he wants it back let him ask for it”. And of course the room mate responded with, “I’m just the messenger” , and I heartly responded right back, “And that is why I am not shooting you”...

I mean what the fuck.. This is the second time in less than a month I have been told .. hey you know that shit I gave you as a gift when we were friends.. Yeah well we are not friends now so I want it back… When did gift giving become dependant on the state of a relationship?? How many Life Memo’s have I missed while I was asleep or at work??

You know.. I am tired.. If you want your shite back bud.. Then grow the fuck up and ask for it like a man. But just to save you some pain and anguish. The answer is NO. Not only No but Fuck No. You gave that stuff to Mim. It is hers now not yours. You gave it up.

 GIFT.. Look it up in Websters… If, and this is a mighty BIG IF.. We ever become friends again.. Maybe , MAYBE I will give it to you as a gift and show you just what a gift is… I wont be petty enough to ask for it back..

 

Posted by LordStar as My Life, Phamily, Rants, Truth at 8:19 PM CDT

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OK when is enough enough? How much or how little information does one need in an ad to find an appropriate slave? I have had various ad’s running around the net now for quite some time. Most of which contain the ad I have placed below.

I would think that if one is searching for a Master or Dom you would like to have him explain just exactly what it is he is looking for. One would think…

But I have had responses to the below ad saying, ” God why be so specific”? , ” Do I really need to read all of this”, ” Oh my god you want what”? , Oh my god I can’t do all that I have to be my own person”! ... Then why portray yourself as a slave for fucks sake??

Are there Really any fem slaves left out there that are not collared? I have to wonder. Because I sure as hell cant find any on these so called BDSM Personal sites. I mean fuck. Most of them “IF” you can even get a response out of them have no clue. They are looking for a boyfriend or a husband that can provide them with a little kinky sex.. If that is so then go to someplace like EHarmony and get your fucking 42 point checkup an find you damn husband. But get the fuck off the BDSM sites. You don’t belong there… God this lifestyle has degenerated into a fucking dating service for adults that cant get a date anywhere else… God I long for the old days when you talked to a slave you knew she was a slave.

Now you tell me is there anything wrong with the ad I placed below???

Let me begin by saying I am Poly-amorous…

Websters defines it as:

Polyamorous;
Definition: Pertaining to participation in multiple and simultaneous loving or sexual relationships

No that being said. Here is the rest of my Profile…

I have never found a slave that was disappointed when we met. Yet I find myself always discovering some new nuance or twist to what I know or may have experienced. I do not consider myself the end all authority. Just another traveler on the road of life who wishes to experience some of the finer things it has to offer. While I have had some wonderful and memorable experiences thats all it has been. Nothing seems to last more than a few years when, I have had to dismiss a slave for severe infraction’s such as not being discrete, deceptive or outright lying. So once again I find Myself taking the time to outline things, such as I have to you so there will be no misunderstandings down the road.

I am always looking for a compliant slave, preferably a bi-female who wishes to experience the joys of servitude as My property.

The following would be of interest to one such as this:

As the instructor I will subject you to an intense approach to behavioral modification. If you are not willing to comply with My requirements then perhaps I am not the Master you are looking for. I require initially four things, ALL of which are paramount:

I adhere to these principals and I demand the same from you: Discretion, Honesty, Trust and Safety.

• DISCRETION *

What we do is to be between the two of us. No details are to be communicated in any form, unless I give you permission. If I want to make My private life public I will take out a billboard. Violation of this will not be tolerated. Some slave’s I have encountered are deceptive by nature and they seem to have this need to feel accepted by others and they brag and tell what they have done. If you are one of these mouth runners or if you are deceptive by nature, and feel the need to “get one over” then this is not for you.

• HONESTY *

I require and expect this. Period. ” I don’t want that, Sir.” does not mean “tie me up and make me do it”. I don’t wish to hear ” thank you, Sir. May I have another?” when it should be ” Thank you Sir. I Deserve another.” Ultimately I will decide if you get another. I do not tolerate manipulation by a slave.

• TRUST *

This is something that will come with time and must be earned. I will demonstrate it with the care and time I spend with you. You will have to constantly prove yourself to me as a worthy slave by doing and completing things I require of you and your overall attitude and approach to serving me. There will be limits to be discussed and set.

• SAFETY *

I demand this of Myself through My constant awareness and ability to follow and read My slave’s body language. I will know your body better than you do. My equipment meets My very high standards of safety. I test everything to exceed two to three times the expected safety level. If you are to be suspended, then the equipment will take three times your body weight. If I am to use a new belt on you, I have taken the time to sand the edges so they are not sharp so they will not cut or break the skin. There is much, much more that I will impart to you, over a period of time if I accept you as My slave.

My course involves both the mental and physical realms. The intensity and diligence that I will require from you will ultimately benefit you and your experiences. I focus on positive re-enforcement for proper behavior but I also include discipline and punishment. You need to have the desire to serve as My slave. Before I accept you, to receive My guidance and instruction, you will go through an interview in which you will be evaluated. Upon completion of this evaluation you will have several examinations. If you qualify, you will receive instruction and training for a probationary period. This training is structured in a multi-level fashion so upon successful completion you will be tested and your performance evaluated.

The instruction and training is on a one-on-one basis and will include proficiency in verbal, writing and reading skills. There will be assignments, tasks and performance evaluations. You will also learn physical endurance and co-ordination involving motor ability skills. In all future communications you shall begin by referring to me as “Sir” when addressing me. You shall write to me and treat this as an application and resume to apply as a candidate for the position as My slave. You should endeavor to appeal to me by your writing skills and social graces. Your enthusiasm and approach to serve is very important as My time is very valuable. If you are looking for a one night stand, look else where. If you feel this is just a game to play or role playing, it is not. While it is safe, sane and consensual, it is very, very real with real outcomes and real effects. If I choose to accept you as my slave you will be required to do many things to please me.

If you are to benefit at all from serving as My slave you need to trust me. Common sense for your safety would tell you to be cautious. I can tell you that I am different from other Dominant’s and you will never find anyone else like me. You will be safe with me but you will do as I say if you wish My time and instruction. While your letter is a start I need to know more of your previous history and training. To begin you will submit yourself to me in the written word as the written word is very powerful.

I need to know what you have done and how you fared. As I need to know what needs to be undone and rectified. You will re-learn to My needs and desires, so you will tell me in great detail what experiences both mental and physical you have had. You will include what disappointments were experienced by you due to your expectations. You shall include a list of the ways that you were a pleasure and disappointment to the previous Dominant. I want to know what you feel are your good qualities. I want to know what are your shortcomings. I want to know of your fantasies. I want to know of your fears.

You will start by writing to me a detailed letter. Your writing will reflect honesty, imagination, social graces and a desire to serve me. You will describe your physical attributes in great detail. As this is of the physical as well as the mental realm, it is of obvious interest but it is not the only thing that will be focused on. If you serve as My slave your body will belong to me. While you serve me it will be My body. Mine to do with how I please and as long as I please. Make no mistake about that. So with that in mind It is my wish that you describe in detail your body. I do want a photo both regular and revealing. This is a requirement, however if you do not currently have one we will discuss the ways that you will provide one. I will except both digital or film.

I am seeking either a bi or straight fem. You will serve me be it in sexual or menial tasks. I do not force homosexuality. I will not tolerate any jealousy nor possessiveness from any slave towards Me or any other sub or slave within My household.

This could be a start of wonderful things to come. I have taken the time to write this to you. If you feel this is not for you, take the time to drop me a short note saying so. I would like to hear from you regardless. If you decide that you can live by these rules, then let me know and we will continue your training from there, and I will welcome you to My family and household.

Posted by LordStar as BDSM, Rants at 7:22 PM CST

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As another day comes to a close I have to remind myself. What goes around comes around. I have spent more hours trying to get the Wife’s site back in order than I should have to.. How many years have I been in this business??? And I still to this day can not remember the cardinal rule of working with computers.. Backup, BackUp,BACKUP…

I guess it boils down to remembering that they were on a “friends” server.. Yeah. Some fucking friend. It is going to be a long time before the Wife and I are willing to offer our trust again. A Long fucking time…

I am 52 years old right now.. Been through hell and one war in my life. And to date I have never been Betrayed by so many in so short a time. It was not just these 2 pissy little shits that shut my website down that got to me. But several others here at home .. It was like some black ops vendetta against us. And the Wife and I still have no idea where half the shit that has come to light came from..

We have Phamily here.. Yeah I spelled it right … Phamily is the family you chose. Not your blood family… These people are supposed to be better than your blood… At least that was how it was supposed to be… And we thought it was till Xmas.
One of these Phamily members that the wife has know for over 15 years has slammed her to the bone… Behind her back of course… Never to her face… Always sweeter than pie to her face… But behind her back she has been maligned and degraded for the lifestyle she choses to live, the profession she happens to do and enjoy, as well as the fact that we happen to enjoy a certain herb now and again… Which really makes me laugh … The one who bitches the loudest is a fucking powder head. And at least if we have sexual contact with anyone other than eachother… We do make sure it is safe and take precautions. Not this lug nut. Go figure…

And another so called Phamily member we have stood by for over 5 years. Now this one has had some serious problems. And we stood by him through it all. Never once did we ever speak out of school and Willy nilly tell people of his troubles and his past. We guarded his right to privacy to the max.. But did he do the same for us..? In a word… NO! Now he did not broadcast our love of the herb to the world. just a few select people. Not that it really mattered.. Almost everyone we know is fully aware of the fact. But it just pissed me off to know that he did this. Why? I have no fucking idea to be honest. Other than he just cant keep his nose out of other peoples business.. And then he complains about the drama in his life. For fucks sake he creates almost all of it… But hey. Who am I to bitch.. Some people can’t live without drama. They bitch about it but cant stop creating it…

Do I sound bitter?? Hmm perhaps a little.. But again the wife pat’s me on the head and whispers.. Karma Dragon, Karma… And she is right. It is just so amazing to see how juvenile people you think are adults can be… I have a 20 year old son that has more maturity than most of these people I write about. But then he grew up with me for a dad.. Hmmm

Well that is enough for today I suppose… Goddess knows what will happen tomorrow.. But we shall deal with that tomorrow…
Good Night all and I wish you all a Happy New Year as it gets a little closer… I don’t normally blog as much as the wife does.. I don’t have anywhere near the talent she has or the flair. But I do try to plod along in my fashion…

Till the next time…

Peace Out

Posted by LordStar as Rants, Truth at 1:05 PM CST

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I woke up on Xmas Day to find that ALL of my websites ( 5 in all ) were gone… And in their place I find the following:

” Learn not to bite the hand that feeds you“...

Did I piss off Santa?? No not at all…

It seems I pissed off the paranoid little punk ass little bitch that was hosting my sites.
Not that it was a good place to be hosted anyway. The stupid little shit was blackballed by half of the internet anyway.
How did I piss him off you ask? Well my friends let me tell you a story…

A long time ago in a land 2 blocks from here we let a couple of ( we thought ) friends stay with us for a while. It seems they had to leave the DR ( Dominican Republic ) rather quickly and had no place to go. You see they are self styled political activists. A husband and wife team as it were. Things were getting rather uncomfortable down there in the DR since the new Pope was put in place and our beloved Fearless leader was on his war rampage. So one night we get a call from the DR and they want out, the wife says she is scared to death. It seems that people are disappearing down there and turning up dead. So we say, “Sure come on. We will put you up for a while. Just need to cover your expenses and share of the bills”... “Cool they say.. No problem.. We will be staying several months and then we will be off to do our thing again”...

Things went great for the first month. It was good to see old friends again. The female of this couple was in the “Adult” industry, BDSM phone sex division. My wife had tried it once before but just as she got started our brother passed away. The wife was not in the best shape after that to do this job so she let it go. But now that these 2 were back and living with us for several months it seemed like a good time to get back into the business again. So with the help of the female friend she did. And since she was in the “Adult Industry” they already had a web server of their own and hosted several sites. SO they offered to host our sites as well.. Coolies.. What are friends for? SO I set up all our sites on their server and everything was peachy…

Then it happened.. Oh boy.. One day a few friends were giving the wife a hard time about her knowledge of the banking industry. She knew what she was talking about as she had worked in the field for over 2 years. Two of the friends were just trying to get her goat but the one was serious and was sure he was right. Hell if you ask him he is always right. Well one thing led to another and the wife finally had enough and went off to our bedroom to calm down…

Me, in my infinite wisdom then said, “Great guys, now you all really pissed her off!”. And then this idiot jumps up, runs to the dining room and throws his laptop against the wall.. Meanwhile shouting at me.. ” It was not my fault. It was not my fault”... The other 2 friends look at me for answers. I shrugged my shoulders and watched the show. After he picked up his laptop he bolts out the door and we don’t see him for 2 days.

Meanwhile his wife is in their bedroom on a “work” call.. She gets done, comes out to see what happened… Everyone explains to her that her precious little hubby just threw to Grand Mall of temper tantrums and bolted out the door… Well she eventually gets him on the cell phone and we find out he took off to the hotel down the road and booked himself a room. He told the wife he was afraid to come back because we all thought it was his fault my wife was pissed off…

Now do you recall my saying it was HIS fault she was upset? No? I didn’t think so. I said “Great guys, now you all really pissed her off!” But the putz only heard what he wanted to hear. You would have to meet this guy to understand. He really needs professional help. Ask any of the friends we have that have met him and they will all tell you the same thing. He creeps most people out… He has always had that Charles Manson / David Koresh aura about him. But I digress…

His wife finally talked him into coming back to the house after 2 days in the hotel.. Shortly there after they took a trip to NM to visit old friends. They were gone for about 2 weeks.. The wife and I had a funny feeling the whole time they were gone.. But just let it pass.. Eventually when they returned we were informed that they had rented a place in NM and were going to be gone by the end of the week.. ( Now this was after buying several acres of land here in Missouri ( on Ebay no less ) to set up home. So we in all good conscience said ” WTF, you said you were staying with us for another 4 months ?? We were counting on you to be here, since the wife had decided to take a chance (on your recommendation no less) and go back to work in the “Adult” field . And now you are going to bail and leave us high and dry”? And the answer of course was ….. You guessed it.. ” Yes, we just want to get back home to our friends ( what the fuck are we, chopped liver? ) and be closer to the wife’s place of employment”.

So that said, they commenced to make arrangements to leave. And by goddess they were gone in under 3 days. Now not a word was said between any of us during that 3 days. I made a promise to the wife that I would not lose my temper. We didn’t have the money for my bail if I did.. So we let them go… And his parting words to the wife were… ” You’ll never be as good as my wife. Your too fat and don’t know what you are doing” .

OK folks.. If there was ever a reason to just beat the fucking snot out of that little prick I cant think of one.. But I promised the wife I wouldn’t.. “Let them go she said.. Karma .. Remember Karma”... Ok I know what comes around will go around… But it sure didn’t make me feel any better…

So they left, and we have not spoken since then.. Then on Xmas day I wake up to find the statement above where all my websites should have been.. Now what the fuck… But it is ok.. I got the sites hosted elsewhere and we are back in business again.. And this time the sites cam be seen by everyone. Not like the black listed douchbag server they were on.. Anyway, I just wanted to share my Xmas Cheer with the world..

Hope everyone had a good Xmas and will have a wonderful New Year…

Peace Out all

Posted by LordStar as Rants, Truth at 1:05 PM CST

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